Yes, it makes sense.
I don't know your story well enough to comment Teke. But I can tell you one of my own.
I don't know why my now-hubby kept dating me! I dated him for 2 years keeping myself guarded and him as my companion/driver/weekend date. And I am still pretty distant with most everyone.
I need to learn to have more FUN myself. I keep blaming it on this small town where there is nothing at all to do.