Yeah, I know what you mean. Ativan was for anxiety, from the doctor, but booze works better, and Ativan works better with booze too; I basically saved a few tabs for this day, I am trying to quit and am seriously worried about the shakey sweats. I had a pretty bad speed habit growing up, and dabbled in base and then coke was killing me so I moved away from San Francisco, and that actually worked- that was 12 years ago. I thought the whole red wine thing was pretty quaint, but have increased alcohol use steadily and now am dramatically a drunk. I don't like it. I sense a pattern, I am so damn bright, huh? I hope I can stop. Writing about it helps keep my hands busy... it's only been 11 hours at this point.