I've got a really high tolerance for alcohol now, it is pretty scary how much I have to drink just to feel it,
Not a good sign. Increased tolerance. My last year or two I had steady BAL of at least .2 24 x 7. At my last de-tox (which did absolutely no good), I walked in with a .52. Aren't you supposed to , like, die when you're over .35 or .4 ?
What happens when you quit ? Have you experienced withdraw yet ? Whoo boy, that's a lot of fun. Not. The last one almost killed me, my BP was something like 210/160. Ativan ? I used to chase it with warm Vodka from the trunk.
Wish you the best. Hang on, it's a tough ride. Others will be here shortly with more secular experience than I have, so all I can share with you is my drunkalog.