Happy you found us, you are not alone there are many parents here who can share and understand what you are going through.
Do you attend naranon or alanon, there is also support in those groups with others going through what you are going through.
I am glad to see you sharing what you are going through it can be ruff when all you have is your husband and family and want your privacy from the outside world. You have a safe place here to open up and share and learn and learn some more about addiction and recovery.