Drainedwife,
Go to different meetings until you find the one you like best. I know some nights at our meetings they are down, but most of the time we talk about how we changed for the better. You might have just hit a bad night.
Please talk to your doctor about your depression, and do something for you. Take a walk if you have to, think of someplace you like and imagine being there. It helps if you have anixety attacks.
Read or watch a movie you really like, anything just for you.
It takes time to get over the hurt, or at least ease the pain of it. Turn to HP and ask for help, he/she will help you and make you stronger.
Hugs