Thanks KJ. I dont think Id ever give it to him, it was written for me, for a release.
For today its easier to say in my head, I could have him if I wanted, but for today Ill leave him be. This weekend me and the kids really had a good time, no running home for a call from jail, no waiting for a release date saying it would be cool if Daddy was here, none of that we just enjoyed our life for what it was.
When he and I met I was stil a child looking for acceptance and to be needed, I hardly had a clue at raising my kids. He filled a void but, I think Im finally a woman, and for the first time in my whole life Im not waiting for someone to fill me up. Does that make sense?