life, such as it is for some of us is unbearable I suppose. My AS has talked about suicide too and has come close to dying a couple of times but not because of intentional attempts at taking his life.
prayers are with you and your AS.
life in prison is frightening at best, but if that is the verdict and he goes, then hopefully he will learn something that will make his life worth living to him, even in prison.
mothers sometimes have the hardest responsibilities in the world...to be a mother to our addicted child. we do it because we love unconditionally, even if our child did make choices that has led him/her to this dark, dark place.