thats what makes it so bad live. i do not trust my ah as far as i can spit him while he's active, and sober, the only reason i was willing to give it another shot and another shot was after either jail or rehab, i figured that if he was ready to get clean and sober then he may be ready to be trust worthy and patient enough for me to learn to trust him again. i also thought that at least while in prison, he had all the test. he also had them in va rehab, other than that it was no go. that was one of our biggest issues while he was here, no intimacy. i just could keep taking that chance. i wanted to skip over that one too, but the question was asked and to tell the truth live i still would have like to hear what you had to say. i guess i'm just curious like that.