Teke, I too sometimes try to convince myself that RAH just doesn't know any better. Sadly, deep down I know that he does.
To avoid hurting him how much of yourself have you sacrificed? It's time to take your life back Teke, stop worrying about hurting him and start living for YOU. You are so worth it. You deserve much better.
I understand the feeling sorry for yourself too, been there A LOT. My grandma always tells me it's ok to feel sorry for yourself once in awhile, as long as you don't stay there to long because it'll eat at you.
Maybe you aren't really stuck at all. Maybe you know deep down what you want/need to do next... but you're afraid of the outcome? I know, for myself, whenever I felt stuck it wasn't because I didn't know what move to make... it was the fear of making that move that kept me stuck. Perhaps, play out that fear in your head and all the different ways that you can get past it.