Done_With_It

To my 3 pd dog and 20 pd cat, Yes I am....

To your question no I have 1 year 6+ months clean from Crystal Meth (Ice).
My opinion? Am I or was I "STUPID"...... NO, Absolutely not.
I made a "Stupid Decision" but "I" am not stupid.

Did I have "ANY" idea what the reprecussions were going to be? Hell no...
I was brought up to believe if you weren't "Thin" you weren't much.
Not by my mom, that's just my beliefs, in my world, that is what I was
taught. Having an eating disorder since I can remember may make me
stupid to some people, so be it.
My best friend came to me with "HER" miracle drug. Took her "THREE"
days to convince me to try it, how much weight I would lose. All that
I saw was a Happy girl, who did not have to sleep, who Looked "Great"
and had lost a whole lot of weight. I didn't know what meth was made
of or how bad it was for you. I knew heroin was bad, I would have
never done that, but I hadn't heard much about meth, except you would
lose weight. Losing weight was all I could see, and as soon as I lost
the weight, I was going to stop. Period. That is what I thought...
And that is truly what I believed. I had No idea of the hell I was bringing
to myself.

So do I think I'm stupid? Ask me that a year and a half ago, and I would
have said yes and was ready to kill myself because of how strongly I did
believe that.

Today, No I know I'm not stupid. I do take responsibility for what I did,
and the choices I made. I made a bad choice, but no I'm not stupid.
There are a lot of "Me's" out there. I could be anyone's daughter.
We are a weight obsessed culture right now. It wasn't only my
best friend who was doing meth to lose weight, I think I was the
only who was not.

But I am honestly okay with anyone who thinks I am stupid, or
anyone else is stupid for that choice. You have the right to feel
the way you do, just like I do. I'm not trying to change your opinion, I was
really just wondering.