(((Marle)))
Doesn't it feel better to let it go?
Isn't it nice to know that you're not the only one who's felt the exact same way? Yes, me too...
You said:
...but I so badly want my daughter to have a good life ...
Visualize it. Pray for it. And give it to G*D.
You're not selfish, Marle, you're human.
Shalom!