Take your time in determining what it is that you feel. You have a day, week or even a month or two just dont wait forever, you have a life to live too with or without him. As long as you know who and what you are dealing with, armed with knowledge of thier addiction and our own, you will be fine. Just don't let the silver tounge devils BS you into doubting yourself or your right to a normal life. lol or as normal as life can be. One of my most favorite movie lines was from Tombstone. On his death bed Doc Holiday tells Wyatt Earp, when he said he just wanted a normal life, "There is no normal life Wyatt, theres just life".