((((Paprika)))
I can "hear" the pain in your post.
Time...thats the best I can come up with. Like they all say, we all have an "enough" point, and if that time comes, the best we can do is accept it, listen to our hearts, and have the courage to change.
In the meantime, maybe make a list, write your thoughts down, talk here...
What has changed between last night and today?
What were you hoping (or expecting...thats my trouble spot) to change when you returned?
You are NOT stupid. You are a bright gal that loves her family and knows when to call for a pick up...thats not stupid.
Prayers for peace and clarity
(((Cece)))