i didn't get a chance to read all your responses but i'd like to say that i don't think that it was your fault at all. my mom did the best she could to raise her kids, never dranked or smoked and didn't have friends around that did either. at home we were not exposed to anything other than church basically and 2 out 6 ended up addict and alcoholic/addict. it was not here fault and neither is it yours, its the choices we make.