yET, SO LETS NOT PUSH IT.
Thats what the counselor said. My AH describes crack as making him feel strong and powerful, thats his desire, and alcohol is for boredom. If I ever took anything that made me feel strong and not week I dont think Id be able to stop I know Ive mentioned once using cocaine and the later desires, Thank God I got pregnant and never tried again.
Doctors also once said they think I liked the pain of withdrawal and hang overs because I felt comfortable being miserable. Scarey huh, that some people out there are so addicted to chaos and pain that the crash period doesnt seem al that bad.
Thats why I dont drink. i remember liking hangovers because it was an excuse to lay around and do anything. I used to like AHs crashing for the same thing and we all did everything. Now my desire is to each day be at the same neutral level and get used to it. Its getting more comfortable.
Teke, Im so glad you eventually were able to stop, otherwise we wouldnt ahve met. i cherish you as a friend