Thanks and Jewelz, of course your not out of line.
It hurts, but I agree its likely not personal. He may have worked one day day labor for all I know. Maybe he is respecting my saying I want no contact until you fix you and can be responsible.
I have to get past this hurt feeling for all of us. Like MIL said right now we still arent good for each other. Even if he's getting it together if he came back now it wouldnt last, why, cause Im still angry he is still vulnerable ect and in a few days Id be tossing him out, the drama triangle would reeanact.
His sisters husband ran into him in the store. Together they called and talked to his sister and that was it. Maybe seeing them will spark something and he'll call, but he has pride so maybe he wont, what would I say anyway, I still love you but I dont want to see you?
Once again got to let go.
Bought myself come vanilla carmel bubble batha nd gonna take a nice bath