Thaks for the replies, still feeling like ****. I do see a doctor for my depression and also take meds. It's just this ******* roller coaster. Feel like **** for a couple of days, ok for a few more, back to this again. I know smoking is not the answer, but it is the only thing that provides ANY, if only temporary, relief. I also know that it is a double edged sword, because while it helps me feel better, it is also the cause of many of my problems. I really just feel like cashing in all of my chips, buying a QP of primo weed and just disapearing. I JUST ******* HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!