wished i could ray, i think i'll try to do one more room but its time for me to take a rest maybe have a cup of coffee, the carpet is not really that dirty but i think that cleaning it helps the dusty smell, do that make sense. do you think that dust sometimes leaves an order or could it be something else.
cinder i feel the same way, though, with the situation with my ah, i just don't know, i think he did not leave on good terms, and while he was here claiming sober, because i was not so receptive of him and his advances, i did tell him that i wanted him gone and that i hated him. it feels like my actions may have been what sent him off using and whatever else he's doing again. i guess i kind of feel a little guilty but i really didn't mean all of what was said, but i did mean that because i didn't trust him not to cheat while on these binges, i couldn't allow myself to be involved with him like he may have thought i should have been.