cinder, i thinks its pretty obvious from what you said before (what sane person puts blankets over their windows!) that hes not sober. hearing all you have to say makes me very afraid of what my crackhead will end up like as soon as he gets out of jail (thurs). i'm thinking its OK to still love them, they are still human beings, they have good somewhere in there, but for own sake and our kids, we just have to stay away from them. pray for them is about all we can do. i know it must be driving you nuts not having heard from him, but maybe its for the best, since hes using, do you really want to hear what he has to say anyway? love him, but let go ( i know, easier said than done)