sorry cinder. sometimes i get sad when i think about how its not suppose to be this way, then i think why did this have to happen to me. it is sad and i don't know about you but sometimes, i get tried of being strong and want to be able to just break down. kind of hard to greive when you have those little eyes staring at you, thinking that you are just a pillow of strength and joy. i think maybe its time for you to go ahead and feel what you feel, get it out, then try to move past the pain. it can't hurt forever, one day at a time we'll get through all of this