I think I feel worse cause I shared my feelings with shrimpguy. I think that made them real where before I was keeping them in, and then I didnt want anyone to see my vulnerable side.
My son and I are getting ready to watch a movie. My son said tell him to come over. I said I cannot, what if Dady came by. SOn said, Mom, he's gone he doesnt care we need to ahve friends over, I want you to be happy. Thats when the tears started flowing.