i think that it would have been easier for me to do it with someone too, someone who would bale me out just in case i couldn't resist the urge. when it came down to not having someone in place to help me just in case, i was forced to find a way to resist the urge, whether i thought i could or not. that brought about that do or die determination to stay clean at all cost, cause i had no other choice, either i did or i died, and not nesessarily literally.