McDOO is right. We get as sick if not sicker and crazier than the addict! It's difficult not to snoop when you suspect something. I did it for 6 years. Each time Id find something, I would hide it away as though one day, when I had enough "evidence" I could lash out at him in anger while holding all the evidence.
Looking back, I didn't need all that "evidence". Knowing that he was an addict was all I really needed. (now the financial end is another story all together)
I needed to get the obsession under control, and take a hard look at myself and what my real motives were. It was like I was collecting pain and agony in a box to hide under my bed, look at when he wasn't home, get angry and hurt, then lock it back away again till the "big day" came and I could use it all against him. I would walk around with hurt in my heart and anger at why he would do this to ME.
How messed up was my head!