He could love you with all his heart but his mind is all about drugs. You can't compete with drugs. When you think that parents are willing to lose their children and still continue to use drugs, you have to know how powerful addiction is. It beats everything, even love. His addiction is not about you and he is not doing it to hurt you. You are just unfortunate to love an addict. That is what happens. That is why it is so important to take care of you. If love were enough to beat addiction, there would be no addicts in this world. Hugs, Marle