Don't beat yourself up about snooping. We have all done some really crazy things due to our loved one's addiction. Now you know that he lies, now you know he is not clean. Time to make a plan for yourself. The alternative is to keep doing what you are doing and keep driving yourself crazy. Believe me it is not a nice place to be and it does not change a thing with the addict. If I could go back and have a do over, I would have let go a lot sooner with my AD. That is the one piece of advice that I would give anyone who loves an addict. Let go and let God. I am sorry that you are hurting. I know the feeling. Sending some big hugs your way, Marle