I've been avoiding posting on F&F for a couple of days while I try to sort things out in my mind.
I know there is no reasoning with an A esp. an abusive A who feels...?..whatever he feels.
But this comment stopped me in my tracks.
Originally Posted by
BigGirlPanties 
What would it take to make you "need" to leave?
A stretcher?
The manipulative threats are obvious to us. Are they to you?
I cannot keep my mind from these words, BGP.
In the past two days, I've questioned my motives, my beliefs, my fears, my hopes. I've questioned everything and everybody I know to question, including myself.
I don't want anything to keep me away from this forum-I love it here and I need to be here. And I esp. don't want the truth to keep me away. BGP, I know your words are true. When I read "a stretcher?" I felt like someone had knocked the wind out of me.
I guess I just...Oh, I don't know where I was going with all this.
A friend on here said sometimes you just have to take the leap and believe you'll fly.
Fly OR fall I know I'm going to just have to jump...