welcome to S.R. you had found the support you need.we all care here. stick around & read all the stickys at the top of the forum.read "what addicts do."you husband is an addict & there is nothing you can do about his using if that is what he wants to do.learn to take care of you.there is lots of recovery here for you.it works if you work it & it will save your sanity.keep coming back.prayers,hope