I don't dislike the culture as such, not all is bad but when you are sitting on a black cloud it is kind of hard to see the sunny days ahead. And I did have sunny days here and will have them again. I just need to remind me every day that it is not of my making and that I can get through this. I cannot imagine to live anywhere else. I am needed here, the work I do fulfills me and this work is very important to me. I will get a caller ID and then I can decide whether or not to pick up the phone when they ring me. I have put that off for a long time but I think no time like the present.