Sugarpup,
(The kids are happier because we have a routine and and warm loving home. They don't have to live with the upredictability and uncertainty of a drunk dad. ) This line hit me like a ton of bricks, my kids are much more at ease when my drunk husband is not at home, as a matter of fact my 11 yr. old daughter will sleep with me if she knows he is out drunk, because we don't spend enough time together. Cherish what you have and don't let him back into your house. I know what it is like when he comes home drunk, and he is belligerent, rude, loud, disrespectful. I just wish I had the guts to get rid of my AH the way you have. You should be proud of what you have done thus so far, this is just my opinion. I hope I haven't stepped on any toes.