JUSTO? you feel worthless???? Do you know how many times you have helped me through your posts here???? Many many many times!!! Sounds like you are on overload--time to take some time for yourself for a change!
I see nothing wrong with someone who is not an alcoholic having a drink....After I left my EXAH--oh boy did I drink--wine-wiskey-drinks that were on fire lol--I did drown myself completely( I was 22)big time binge week end drinker.
But I am not an alcoholic so I didnt have a problem just one day stopping completely..Now if I have a sip of wine I almost pass out!
You need some R&R soon....