New Beginnings...Finally
It can sound silly but it's day 2 without any tears. There were a couple close calls but I stopped that. The time for mourning with tears is over!~ The calls, the emails, the face to face visits are done.
He is truly messed up and I cannot love him enough to change that, only he can. If he runs back home to where his famiy is and doesnt get treatment. Then he will no doubt face additional hardship. But I cannot help that.
He wanted me to be strong and go on, move past this. Well, it took me almost two weeks of pure hell, but I think I've done it.
I have some things to figure out, living, finances, future, etc. But those will begin to fall in place now that I can ponder MY future. The stupid sucker, he let a bottle and mental weakness cost him; me and 20K!~ Serves him right...kinda even if i do feel sorry for him.
It has been wonderful that you all have let me vent and share my personal tourment through this. It is very theraputic. Now watch me recover myself and my future!