Yeah...I don't know what that was about.
At my meeting, one woman pointed out something to me that I thought was really helpful. I was upset, and saying I didn't know what I was supposed to do now.
She said that it was a great breakthrough for herself the day she realized she didn't have to do anything. She didn't have to scream, to say he had to go to rehab, to leave, to stay--nothing. She could just go on about her day, taking care of herself, and doing the best she could.
All I have done is to tell my husband that I won't nurse him through withdrawal again, and that if he is using, we probably won't be together much longer. I also told him that it really hurt me that he lied to me and involved me in something that he knew I didn't want to be involved in. I said all of this very calmly, very respectfully, and then I gave him a kiss and went to bed.
And now, I'm having a good day and getting my house cleaned. It's not perfect, and this life isn't exactly what I want, but today is ok, and that's all I can ask for.