sorry that you are going through all of this is. addicts most of the time is only thinking about themselves and how they can continue their drug use. being a recovering addict i can say that i don't know any addict who wants to keep someone elses drug parphanalia, just don't happen that often. you are do have a right to feel the way you feel, maybe its time to set some boundaries and make them ones that you can stick to, you deserve to live in safety. you traveling with his tools or having them in your home is very dangerous to you. maybe it time for you to really that a closer look at what you want your life to be like with or without him, he won't stop until he's ready and i find that it is so hard to believe anything that addicts say, what they do is what counts. most recovering addict don't practice hanging around anything that has anything to do with drugs, either. i pray that your boyfriend finds his way soon. keeping you and yours in my prayers.