New to site but not to addiction
My 23yo son is an alcoholic and addicted to heroin and oxy's. He has stolen from lots of family members and doesn't know how to tell the truth. He becomes verbally and physically abusive, can't hold a job, has no money and no place to live. I only recently found out about the drug addiction. My heart is broken. He has been in court ordered 30day detox, many other detox's and a 1/2way house but never follows through. I live in a different state from him (partially due to his behavior). I always thought I could fix him or help him and I know now that I can't. How do I keep my sanity?? I just want to cry all the time. My husband seems to be able to turn off his emotions about it and doesn't want to talk about it at all. Sometimes I wish I could turn back the clock to when he was little. I have guilt wondering if it was something I did or didn't do while he was growing up. I guess I just need to be able to vent without being judged. Sorry to dump on you all.