Thankyou for all your replies. I know you all understand. Your right from the time there small we have hopes and dreams for them. He was the light of my life still is. What Ive come to realize finally is that I have absolutely no control. Too continue to live with him will only make me sick. Until you lived with an addict no one truly knows how bad it is. Addicts are the most manipulative people I have ever met. I fear for him and his future. He is 20 years old will he be a druggie on the streets at 40, will he he make it too his 21th birthday? I still at times shake my head in disbelief that my son is a drug addict. I never even thought of drugs before. My spouse and I had no idea he was an addict until at 17 he told us. It truly saddens me to see all the addicts out there. Again thankyou