beerWASmyfriend

Hi all, its been a while since I've posted anything, but I'm still reading all these helpful posts on here. Lots of extremely helpful people! I am still doing good at not drinking. My last post had me at 8 days and counting. Tomorrow is day 50. I never even thought I could go 5 days. I am doing it by myself and more importantly, for myself. I told myself I wasnt "thirsty" anymore and that seems to have helped me. If I was so focused on drinking, and when I could start, and how many hours I had to drink before it was time to go to bed so I didn't smell like a brewery at work in the morning, why not focus on something else that hard? I found I didn't need anything else to focus on. I just quit. I did buy a book to read about quitting drinking, but I'm sure where it is now or remember what the title of it is. My wife and I are getting along a lot better now and I have realized that most if not all of our problems were because of my habit. My step-daughter doesn't raise my blood pressure when she walk into the room that much anymore either. I guess that fog has lifted for me to see what I did to my family and now its up to me to fix it. I have learned to use my quitting to my advantage sometimes with my wife. If she gets me mad about something stupid, I'll tell her I'm going to get a beer, then the calm is back in the house again lol. She cleaned out my "beer fridge" in the garage and I was suprised to see that the leftover beers were still in there. I see them every time I go to the newly named "pop fridge". I don't even have the urge to grab one.

My days of sobriety havent come easy though. Irratability is my biggest one that I'm having trouble with, and sleeping. I saw my Dr and told her I lied to her about how much I drank. She gave me Ambien to get me to sleep. My next step is to ask her about me being cranky or jumpy. Any ideas for that one?

Thank you, everyone, for all the help youve given me without even knowing it. I can't express my gratitude enough.

Andy