So sorry to hear what your going through. I don't blame you for going to a hotel. I have wanted to do that many times, but just never got around to it. Holding out till the end of May will be torture. I through my as out 5 weeks ago. I felt bad and cried every night at first, but I can now relax in my own home. He is out now supposedly sober and trying to find a new life.
I also found unknown jewelry in my home, that disappeared after awhile. It's time to take care of you. Good Luck and hugs.