Laura, congratulations..remember you still have your husband and children...always be grateful...I've been battling alcohol for 35 years..Ive been to AA-read all kinds of self-help books--Bible...But I've lost all my support...The only support I have is with other drinkers..been there and done that.. Every morning I wake up feeling positive--by noon I'm walking the floor..Finally yesterday at 6PM I called a drinking friend and said my eyes are swelled shut from crying--can you go get me a 30 pack...So today I start over.. More than likely if you keep drinking It will only go down hill...Hang on to what you got Laura--its lonely at the bottom.............