Hi Beth,
I've been depressed today too - finally coming out of it.
2 months clean - well done. You seem to have a lot of people in your life who are still using and that must be very difficult. I'm impressed that you are ready to cut certain people off - your recovery is so worth it.
Do you go to any NA meetings? I go to AA myself, but they always help me to feel less lonely, and it's vital (for me) to connect with other drunks regularly.
I strongly suggest not talking to this guy on the phone anymore - sounds like he wants someone to use with.
Do whatever you need to do for yourself that is good for you - a nice hot bubble bath, a scented candle or two, a glass of cool water or hot cup of herbal tea, and just breathe. This is exactly what I had to do today, and I finally feel a little more grounded.
Tomorrow will be a better day, Beth. Just get through today as best you can.
Hang on to that precious clean time - you've worked hard for it.
Love, Rowan