There's a progression, and it will get worst and worst.
When I was in my addcition, meth was offered to me by one of my co-workers.
I worked long hours shift and it gave me energy to do my work , school and partying.
I did a little bit, but a little didn't do it , so a little got more and more.
I made over $1500 a week, but i party so hard sometimes. i would
have to borrow $20 on monday morning to last until friday.
But I wasn't using it everyday at first, So i didn't borrow all the time
and $20 was nothing compair to my pay check to pay back, So I
always paid it back.
Eventaually I had over a $100 a day habit.
I got into a cycle of just living to use and using to live.
I'd manage my bill's, but eventaully drugs became more improtant than cable..and progressed.
There were even prevention attemps for me at that piont.
I refused it and denial all of it. Becuase to admitt i was an addict
at that piont was non-existence. My perception of an addict was
a homeless hype in a dark alley. I would sober up and stop using
on my own for a couple of months, but find myself back to using again.
I had to hit a bottom. it was hard for everybody to let me go.
Family, freinds, and the corporation. Everybody at some piont did
reach out to me. But at the end I had to hit a bottom with nobody
and nothing.
Would i have stop earily knowing this now...of course i would.
But being in my addiction I was incapiable...my education, career,
logic played a non factor.
I'm sorry, you're are dealing with these types of issuse in your life.