Carebears, ((HUGS))). Sometimes feelings get hurt so bad, they never grow back. I know you feel guilty, but if you dont' feel like you did, there's nothing you can do to force the feeling. It's only going to get worse if you stay and you don't love him like you did. You will start to feel even more and more resentful until you start lashing out. I recommend meetings or therapy. Maybe a seperation is what you need to sort out your feelings.
Things will work out one way or another....they always do.
Peace.