I feel so guilty and afraid. It was so hard for me to decide to do this. I basically put more work on myself as well..but I felt like keeping it the way it was was like enablling him. He is really angry about it. Its llike he doesnt get it. I mean...I think If the tables were turned I would feel like maybe I need to look at myself but for him its just me trying to control everything. Thank you all so much...I know many of you know what its like to live with an active addict. He isnt at peak but Ive seen progression. I do believe a person can look up even half way down into the pit ..not always have to go to the bottom. Thanks for letting me vent..