I am sorry.
My X husband attempted suicide so many times he was committed as an inpatient in the State Pyschiatric hospital. He hated to live. He would get sleeping pills and sleep all the time to escape life (when he wasn't drinking).
He died there 8 months later of a heart attack. He hated life for most of his. He is finally at peace.
His attitude was it would be easier to be dead than to to work recovery and live.