Originally Posted by
teke 
i was thinking about why you can't leave when you sound like you may want to that you deserve.
This brings up so much truth about this situation...
I can't leave because...
1. Feel like I'll never meet anyone that I've felt this way about (obviously his behavior prior to the past three months of active addiction.)
2. I DEEPLY WANT to believe that he will move out of denial and be willing to admit this problem is unmanageable and cannot be tackled on his own and then change.
3. Feel that I'll never find the connection I have with him with anyone else. I dated for awhile prior to meeting him and found it hard to find someone I really liked.
~ Now, as sad as it sounds-- he is pushing me away. So far away. Basically kicking me out of his life and continuing to tell me that "I've already left." Why am I still holding on so darn tightly???