Heather -
Been there! The addict in our lives like to take the focus off of them so they can continue with the awful destruction that takes a toll on everyone involved in their lives. I had to leave my husband of 20 years to regain control of my emotions and self esteem. It has not been easy! I still love my husband deeply and my heart hurts most of the time! But, you need to take care of yourself and work on enjoying life again! Its not easy...I know. You are in my thoughts and prayers!