hi kimmie, sorry for your pain and i do understand how you must feel, my hearts for you too. i'm a mom and we want the best for our kids. i too am a recovering addict with 7 kids. what has happen to your son is not your fault, he choose to do what he did to get to where he is. my father was addicted but my drug use was because of the choices that i made. my dad may have had his own issues, but it was up to me whether or not to follow in his footstep. you are responsible for you only, now. i know that you are hurting but it still seems like you are ok, i think that since he is in jail, it is a far better place for him to be rather than on the streets using meth. sorry that you had to go through all of this, hopeful its your sons time, and maybe the push that he needs to realize that he does need help. i pray that he begans to reach out while there, and for you to continue to keep the focus on you.