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Old 03-29-2007, 12:30 AM
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calabash
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Again a very valid point. In my first post I stated that if I had been walking with my HP I would never have been on that site. Before becomming seriously involved in cocaine addiction I never looked at porn. Like you state, it is pretty demeaning of women. I am also not sure why I started to look again, but Donna's point about it targeting the same brain centre as coke makes sense.

I just think I must return to examine my insanity as per step 2. This is NOT who I truly am, but who I have become through drugging. It is certainly not who I want to remain.

I am grateful that I know I must work step 2 again (sigh) and truly come to belive in a power greater than myself that can restore me to sanity.
Everytiome I think I am realy getting there, I f up again. But I am grateful I have a sponsor, a programme and message boards thaty help me. And I do now know a HP exists. So I am slowly coming to believe. Progress - not perfection
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