hi upsidedown . just had a chance to catch up on the posts . im happy for you that you made your decision and in my opinion no matter how it turns out it was the right one for not only your daughter but for you and your family as well . you are being thought of today and prayed for , not just by me i see .. and btw, you are not weak , we all have weak moments but its then that we let our 'friends' help carry the burden for us until we are stronger and can carry on .. thats what this site is for, isnt it ?? xoxo