You are doing great, Nicole!!
Hooray for you! I know it isn't easy...
I'm sure your bf does love you. Addicts are capable of love (at least I think so)...but the problem is...they don't love themselves. Addicts love to accuse us of 'hating them' when we don't give in to their demands. He knows the score. He knows why you are doing what you are doing. He's just hoping to weaken your resolve. He's probably pretty desperate right now...
Just be careful that you don't do any of this to teach him a lesson. Do it for yourself.
Keep going!!
You're recovery is shining!!!