Thanks again IO and Golfman - your words rang in my head this weekend as my demon resurfaced. I definitely wanted to drink again, and there was nothing healthy about my obsessing on it.
I stayed sober Friday night because of the warnings you posted here. I was afraid to drink for fear of the combined effects of the meds and alcohol.
Saturday was tougher. I went through my smartrecovery cognitive processes and that helped for a while. In the end, though, I was probably saved by my daughter, who was following me around all evening making it impossible to sneak away until after the stores were all closed.
The meds have me feeling better, but there is clearly still much work to do.
Thanks again.